Love has always been awake.

"Get on the car, Tu Ya Tou," said San Bao to me, making a gesture.

You wouldn't come to see me even if you weren't sad. He finally left the computer, put on his clothes and said, "What do you want to eat? Sanbao is treating us today."

No. I said.

Sanbao, do you have a little bit of liking for me?

That restaurant is pretty good. I like spicy food, so spicy that tears come out, but I feel very refreshed. Sanbao looked at me and said, "If you want to cry, just cry. You're still relying on the chili pepper."

Sanbao is such a funny person. Being with him is simply joyful. The nights in late spring and early summer are still a bit cold. I put my hand into his arm and as we walked, I said to him, "Last time when I went home, your mother asked me if you had found a wife."

My tears splashed out in that moment. I know that Zuo Wen and I have spent more than two years together. Now, we are only one word away from saying goodbye. I have made so much preparation, stored up all my courage, and wanted to say those two words first, but in the end, I lost to myself. How ridiculous this is!

What a nonsense poem!

However, when Zhuo Wenchao walked towards me, my heart hesitated terribly. He was very thin, but wearing a large gray T-shirt, and his beard seemed to have not been shaved for a long time. When he walked, he seemed a bit unsteady. But it was precisely this appearance that made me feel familiar and friendly. The anger and grievances that had been suppressed in my heart for a long time collapsed and disappeared in an instant, and I didn't know where they went.

I am beyond redemption," I said, "my mind is full of him."

What are you doing here? I asked him.

Sanbao smiled mischievously and said, "That year when I went home, I brought him a radio. He cherished it as if it were a treasure."

That's right. He looked up and said, "Even if I say it, no one will believe it."

He can actually sing popular song lyrics, even when I'm feeling down, I still manage to smile.

I was unwilling to accept failure. At eleven o'clock at night, I dialed his dormitory phone number, but he wasn't there. Then I borrowed Li Mei's phone to send him a text message, pretending that I didn't know anything, telling him that I miss him and asking him to take care of himself.

"You are not allowed to speak ill of him!" I said sternly.

I know that many girls can't stand Zhuo Wen, thinking that he lacks masculinity and has too many calculations. But I have no choice. He tempted me to eat an apple with a curse. Even if I fall into the abyss, I am still happily confused.

I quickly covered his mouth: "Alright, after all, he is a college student."

I just miss him. I put down the chopsticks, bury my head in the palm of my hand, and feel utterly useless.

Sanbao brother. I asked him, "What's wrong with me?"

"One hundred thousand?" Sanbao looked at me and said with a smile, "Are girls nowadays so picky? If I give you one hundred thousand, would you cook for someone?"

I couldn't tell a lie, "I'm an honest person," I said.

He said with a smile, "If you go back home, please ask my mother to get me another pair of cloth shoes like that, which are good for my feet."

After so many years of being buddies, what's there to thank for? We've grown so distant. I finished speaking and heartlessly turned around and walked away.

He said he was tired, but he still accompanied me to the bus stop. After thinking for a while, he got on the bus with me and even transferred with me until we arrived at the school gate. When I said goodbye to him, he stopped me and shouted, "No thank you?"

Even Li Mei doesn't believe me, she reproaches me saying, "I told you to stand by and watch, but you didn't believe me."

Li Mei sympathetically said: "The whole world knows, I really can't bear to hide it from you. Just now, I saw them reading together in the library."

Who asked you to borrow it? I twisted him and said, "I'm reminding you to save quickly. With 100,000, you can get married. It's great to have someone cook for you every day."

Why don't you fall in love then? I asked him.

I pouted and felt like crying. He quickly comforted me, saying, "That sour scholar, it's better not to have him."

I know 'Munich', she is one year below me, and she got this nickname because of her dark skin. She is a passionate girl, wearing all kinds of camisoles in the girls' dormitory like a butterfly throughout the summer, very sexy and beautiful.

At a place where people come and go, you don't have much chance," Sanbao said. "Little Rabbit, listen to Brother Sanbao and say bye-bye to him gracefully. Living a wonderful life alone."

I nodded my head, unable to speak. Tears would flow out as soon as I spoke. Then I turned around and walked away. When I reached the corner, I couldn't help but turn back to look at him. He was still standing in the same place, hands in his pockets, looking up at the sky.

Sure enough, when I pushed the door and entered, he was chatting animatedly on QQ, completely ignoring me for quite a while. There are four men living in their dorm, and the room is filled with the smell of stinky socks. I covered my nose and said, "Sanbao, I haven't eaten yet."

Don't you want to make her unhappy?

Of course there is. She said, "You promised to believe in love. A little setback is nothing."

Sanbao, are you really afraid that I will die?

The most puzzling thing is that Zhuo Wen also came to find me, and stopped me at the cafeteria entrance, saying, "Xunuo, I hope you can be more gracious." I asked him puzzledly, "What did I do?"

I went to the appointment without any opinion. As expected, Zhuo Wen quickly made a decision with me. He said, "Promise, I think we should just leave it at that."

I changed my clothes as instructed, combed my hair, and followed him to the school gate. My goodness, I never expected to see a tricycle parked there. Sanbao pointed at it and said, "We rented it. Today, Sanbao will use it to take you to see the stars."

I turned my head and continued sleeping, but was awakened halfway by Li Mei's push: "Hurry up and go down, your brother and the security guard are arguing. They're using foul language. I came up to call you and only then did they stop."

Nonsense!

I also wanted it, but unfortunately they didn't want it. I thought of Zhuo Wen, and my face immediately darkened.

Sanbao Ge. I asked him, "You've been working for almost three years, right?"

He still sent me back to school. We were too full, so we walked slowly. Along the way, we talked about happy things from our childhood. He told me that I was very ugly and dry-looking when I was young. I retaliated by saying that he didn't look good either, carrying a cloth backpack and wearing cloth shoes, looking extremely rustic.

Li Mei said, "Feelings must be a duet. If he changes his mind, I will not linger for a second."

Oh my goodness, he said that with a big beard, and I made a vomiting gesture. He quickly brought a plate for me to catch it. I laughed heartily.

I said goodbye to Zhuo Wen and watched them walk away. A boy passing by whistled at me, making my failure known to everyone.

She actually looks down on Zhuo Wen like this.

I found myself crying again. There was a small mechanism in my heart that was suddenly pushed open by something, and the door of my heart opened to welcome a boy named Sanbao. Like me, he comes from the countryside. Like many children from rural areas, he searches for survival, space, and wonderful love in the narrow cracks of the city's bright lights and bustling nightlife. He is a bit self-deprecating, a bit timid, but never gives up. But it was he who made me realize that love has always been awake, I just didn't see it before. Like many children from rural areas, he searches for survival, space, and wonderful love in the narrow cracks of the city's bright lights and bustling nightlife. He is a bit self-deprecating, a bit timid, but never gives up. But it was he who made me realize that love has always been awake, I just didn't see it before.

It seems that he has been completely enchanted by that black-haired girl, and there is no reasoning with him. I threw the lunchbox at his face, feeling utterly embarrassed and decided to drag him down with me. With all eyes on us, he fled in panic. I lost my appetite and went back to the dorm to sleep.

Didn't we settle this a long time ago? I tried to maintain a smile on my face.

I sarcastically thought, now Zuo Wen has changed his taste, he has fallen in love with colorful and flavorful fruit juice.

I stand downstairs from the boys' dormitory, the words I want to say are very simple, but they have already been repeated hundreds of times in my heart. That is: Zhuo Wen, let's break up.

You are wrong. I said, "I will pay for my own weight loss."

Don't mention my sad story. I'm done with him.

What exactly has turned you into a city girl? Sanbao said, "How about I get a tricycle to pull you?"

Perhaps you only love a memory of the past, not the person anymore," Li Mei said. "Once you realize this, you will be able to let go."

I am confused.

Zhuo Wen often glares at me with anger, but it is clear that he admires "Munich". It seems like the so-called "one thing lowers another". Lost in thought, I returned to the dormitory with weak legs. The security guard told me that someone was looking for me and waiting at the school gate. When I ran out to take a look, it turned out to be Sanbao, squatting there smoking.

Sanbao is my fellow villager. We grew up in the same village. Sanbao is not his real name, his real name seems to be something like Wu Dagui, which sounds unpleasant. I'm used to calling him Sanbao Ge (Brother Sanbao) because I have a pair of buck teeth, and he has always called me Tuyatou (Bunny). My impression of him when we were young was that he was quite clumsy, he couldn't even climb a tree, but he had good grades and got into college four years earlier than me. By the time I also got into a university in the provincial capital, he had already found a decent job here and was earning a good amount of money every month. My mother repeatedly urged Sanbao to take good care of me before she left, almost bowing to him. Sanbao did keep his promise. He would inquire about my well-being every now and then, and when the remittances from home couldn't keep up, he would often generously help us out. It made the people in our dormitory think for a long time that he was my real brother.

I called Sanbao and told him that I can't go on living, I want to die.

Okay, okay, be good! He reached out and ruffled my hair, "Shall we talk about it again?"

Li Mei touched my long hair and said affectionately, "Why don't you just give up? You will be happier."

You just need to be able to let it go. "Zhuo Wen said," We have too many differences, and I cannot bring you a lifetime of happiness. "

Actually, he can't save much worry. In this city, which is always unfamiliar and bustling to me, he has become an indispensable spiritual support for me. When I am not happy, he is always the first person I think of.

Li Mei is the big sister in our dormitory. Her boyfriend is in another city, and they chat every night via text messages. Their relationship is stable and enviable. I said to her, "The wind leaves traces behind. If it were you, could you be so carefree?"

"Why are you like this?" Sanbao said, "You should tell her that the girl who is chasing after me has lined up five miles outside the door."

Feeling suffocated in my heart, I didn't want to stay in school, so I decided to go out for a walk. When I walked out of the school gate, the sky was already dark, and the wind closely followed me from behind, lifting the corners of my clothes and skirt. With nowhere to go, I decided to go find Sanbao.

If your mother listens to your nonsense and goes to bang her head against the wall, Sanbao angrily said, "He repeatedly instructed me to keep an eye on you and forbid you from dating. I have been covering up for you for nearly three years. Can you be a bit more sensible?"

Her eyes were filled with the pride of victory as she looked down on me from above.

Are you planning to wear it to meet your online MM? I asked him.

I said firmly, "I will never shed a tear for anyone again."

"But don't worry," I said, "you know I'm a coward. I'm even afraid of death because I don't know how to die without too much pain."

What a waste of words!

Sanbao Ge. I dragged my sobbing voice, "Can you teach me how to make him soften his heart?"

I covered my face and exclaimed in surprise.

Where did he ask to meet you?

He looked at my face carefully and said, "I didn't notice."

No one is as fickle as you, there are countless girls online.

His mother's. He fiercely extinguished the cigarette butt and said, "In the end, are you going or not?"

Sorry, Xunuo." His tone softened.

The small dog from Zhang Er's family," I said. Zhang Er is a fool in our village. When we were young, his family had a dog that was famously ugly and barked uncontrollably. It was a thorn in San Bao's side. Finally, they got a chance to kill it, and Zhang Er cried for almost three days.

That puts my mind at ease. He handed me a large piece of fish and said, "I wish you a pleasant choking."

He frowned and said, "Women are just like that, no fun."

Entered the restaurant, I mischievously ordered expensive dishes, making him stare at me in frustration. I didn't care, indulging myself without any worries. He could only helplessly look at me and say, "Getting fat from overeating, then spending money to lose weight, won't save ten thousand dollars for ten thousand years?"

Did you really get dumped, Tu Ya Tou?" he stopped and asked me.

I want to argue but have no words.

I thought to myself, "Exams, who doesn't know that exams are just an excuse?" But all I could muster was a soft "Hmm" in response. It has been a long time, and I have grown somewhat afraid of him. As for what exactly I am afraid of, I cannot even articulate it.

I "Hmm" in response. He nodded at me and said, "Go in, it's late. Go to bed early and don't think too much."

Okay, okay. He pulled me out and said, "I'll give you 500 when we get back, and take care of your food, drink, and bodily functions separately. How about that?"

How much money have you saved?

You are forcing a smile," Sanbao's fingers were flying on the keyboard while he turned his head to ask me, "Are you having another disagreement with someone surnamed Zhuo?"

"It's not impossible," he said, "I conquer them with my true colors." After saying that, he grinned and laughed, looking adorable. I forgot that I was a person who had just experienced a breakup and laughed along desperately.

Is it wrong to be infatuated? I ignored his humor and continued on my own: "How can love be dismissed so easily? How can we say we can forget it just by saying so?"

I can't eat. I'm frowning and looking unhappy.

The entrance was crowded with onlookers, and she was finally taken away by someone else.

I didn't even comb my hair, hurriedly ran downstairs, Sanbao was standing downstairs, still looking angry. When he saw me, he pulled me up and down to take a look, and then said, "That damn old man wouldn't let me come up. I almost dug up his ancestors' graves."

I fell in love with Zhuo Wen when I was a freshman. At that time, I had just come from the countryside to study at the university in the provincial capital, and I was a naive little girl who knew nothing about the world. Zhuo Wen was one year ahead of me and was a talented student in the Chinese department. From the first day I entered the school with my double braids and white shirt, he started to pursue me. He invited me to join the editorial department of the department's newspaper as an intern editor, read his love poems to me in my ear, took me to the theater to watch plays that I couldn't understand at all, and taught me how to kiss and hug.

"Sanbao, it's been many years since you last went home, hasn't it?" I said.

Don't pity me. He hadn't finished speaking, and I interrupted him, saying, "I can't die."

Just like a poem I saw from him in the "Campus Poetry Magazine" not long ago, which says: Love is asleep, unwilling to open its eyes, while the flowers are still blooming, but I am already tired...

The girls in the same dormitory are all angry. They surrounded her and vowed to fight for justice for me. She broke through the heavy encirclement and shouted sharply, "You shameless thing, no wonder no one wants you!"

Heartbreak, huh? He said, "Once every three days. You'll get used to it."

No problem, come and take a look at yourself. I whispered, looking down at my toes, hating myself for lacking self-respect.

However, since I started dating, he has come less often. In his words, "Now it's better, less trouble."

Zhuo Wen. I said, "Okay."

However, I didn't expect that three days later, "Munich" would come to my dormitory aggressively. She slammed my desk and said sternly, "What nonsense are you talking about in front of Zuo Wen?"

I used scissors to cut the "Poetry Magazine" into pieces, while cutting, I missed Zuo Wen, thinking about the way he loved and cared for me. My heart ached sharply and then dulled, repeating endlessly, unable to find peace.

I can accompany you for a meal," he lazily said, "but I won't drink."